I will write. I am wondering about Eriko; but more in particular, I am wondering about me. Sometimes I wonder if I just have a Japanese fetish – surely I have this image in my mind, built up through years of curiosity and mystique. What would possess me to ask a woman to marry me when we hardly know each other? Because I am in love with an image and a picture it was very easy to slide that mold around her. But I don’t know who she is, I don’t know what she is capable of. She knows nothing of me either. Yet she accepted my offer as willingly as I offered it; is she in love with an image for me too? Are we simply dolls in each oother’s minds? I’m grateful for these thoughts and feelings, even if they are distracting – I will know myself, come hell or high-water.

My room re-org is not complete, but I took apart my desk and fit all three of my monitors! Of course, only one is actually working at the moment but I see the future… and it is bright! ;P My last note from Eriko was that she was going to the agency to buy a plane ticket… that was several hours ago… talk about suspense! Time for some leisurly reading and the sack, while listening to the Commodores.

I had my final tonight. I did the best that I could, and now I will await my final grade. That is a big relief, it was a challenging class and combined with Isilon it was more work then I originally expected. In retrospect, however, I realize several ways in which I could have made the load easier on myself and I think I would have done a better job on both fronts… next time – and yes, there will be a next time.. Eriko has talked of reserving/purchasing a ticket to Alaska lately… but every since that discussion she has been rather aloof; however, I don’t feel bothered for some reason – I’ve made it clear what I want and that is all I can do; if and when she steps up to the plate will be completely decided by her.

My boss told me that the schedule was a little agressive and he wished he had been in on the decision making process sooner… in other words, “we had hoped you could have done it in the time we suggested but it is understandable that you did not.” I have been given two more weeks. With my final today, I will have no other distractions (besides the ones I invent) and I intend on making this deadline.

It is a very beautiful day but too hot for my tastes. 90 degrees! I have had difficulty studying and probably should have gone to work where it is air conditioned. ;P Hopefully I’ll hear back from the TA and meet with him soon to answer my questions.

ahhh. i have a really busy weekend ahead of me. in fact, i don’t really see much let up until next weekend. so tonight i am doing nothing. well. i am compiling linux kernel version 2.5. of course. now that i don’t have to do homework on my computer i can destabilize it. hehe