So fascinating. I’ve just spent about an hour or two going over old email, from as far back as 1998. I discovered that some email had accidentally been deleted and was quite concerned until I was able to restore it from a backup tape. Which reminds me that I need to get a real tape drive for the server, I would have been lost without it. And I’d be lost without my buddy Susie, who I talk to often (we just made a bet on who has a bigger waist – I’m going to win, which means I lose and have to buy dinner). Anyway, back to email – I’ve decided to collate my email and produce graphs so I can see when I email the most, where it comes from, etc. Eriko and I have sent an amazing amount of email to each other in a short time – I have received almost 4000 emails from her. I worry sometimes, that our flame burned too hot… I didn’t even think of that until Brian told me it was so.. but I hope it is not the case. The future is an exciting enigma; an infinite serious of roads. Fasci! nating.

i had a great visit with them last night and i was able to tell them that Eriko is coming to visit! i miss them very much. Eriko also told me that her mother had bought some gifts for the family. i’m excited. =)

Well, I’m not as excellent as I hoped to be; I’ve got work to do. I received a 3.7 in my Algorithms class after a dismal 82 points in the final exam. Shucks.

I didn’t get nearly as much accomplished at work as I would have liked; I simply lacked motivation and concentration. sigh This project has me bogged down in minutia. But tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life! ;P

What a chore! Is it my age? My upbringing? My environment? Circumstance? For wwhatever reason, I feel impatient these days and I seem more likely to make mistakes. Have I always been impatient? Probably so. As my buddy Susie says, I’m just lazy and spoiled. Is this part of my nature, or do I have the capacity to change it? For instance, I want email from Eriko! Alas, several days have passed. I don’t get impatient if it takes my sister months to email me so why do I expect something different from Eriko? Silly me and my expectations – simply causing trouble!

My dad told me that it is normal to have doubts; I would take it one step farther and say that it is good to have doubts – without them I don’t get any participation from my head. All too often I lead with my heart, but as my dad also told me, the feeling of love comes and goes – without my head I have no backup for my heart. So doubt away… what doesn’t kill this thing with Eriko will make it stronger. ;P Oh yeah, today will be spent working.. laaammmmeee. =)