it is strange knowing that you will change but not knowing how or when. even the why isn’t quite clear yet.

I was awakened last night by some strange moaning noise. I left my bed and as I exited the bedroom and rounded the corner, I saw at least two animal shapes on the floor. They immediately scrambled to exit it as quickly as possible, claws scratching at the floor. It was quite awakening. To the best of my knowledge, it was Bailey and an orange cat – at least I observed the two of them sitting on the lawn after the incident. They didn’t appear to be at odds with each other but I wasn’t close enough to hear their conversation. I spent the next hour up making a makeshift curtain out of cloth to cover the open window. I’m not sure whether that will prevent any further intrusions, however. My biggest concern is that Bailey will get assaulted in her home while I am gone (like in Tacoma).

after three or four nights in a row of tortuous problem-solving dreams (where i invent and attempt to “solve” a fictitious problem) i slept much better last night. the pressure of my CS class is off and i didn’t drink any alchohol after 8 PM (otherwise, i tend to be very dehydrated). i still had water too late as i was woken up by a compelling need to take a short walk. i left the window open all night and Bailey came and went without disturbing me. who knows, maybe next year i can start sleeping through the night…

i’ve decided that i want to statistically model the keys i type, so i can develop a keyboard which is optimal to my usage patterns. granted, i will have to sample for an extended period of time to avoid influences such as where i’m working or what the latest project is. i thought i was going to have to write a kernel module (i may have to for FreeBSD) but linux has this wonderful module called evdev which gives me trivial access to all input events. as i type this, a tiny daemon is recording the time of each keypress and release into a file which is undoubtedly going to grow too large, too quickly. right now i am just logging each event as it occurs – but that obviously won’t scale. the keystrokes file has grown to almost 50k with not much more than this entry being typed… ;P

Bound by the ancient ropes of otoko-rashisa (manliness) to the pillar of Bushido (the way of the samurai), men are valued for being kamoku (silent), goken (strong in mind and body), ippongi (uncompromisingly earnest and honest), yukan (courageous) and daitan (bold).
Visually, it helps if they’re kinnikushitsu (muscular) and kebukai (hairy) in the right places, like legs and wrists (for some reason, chest hair has always been a downer). Naturally, they’re expected to be messy, to abstain from vigorous washing, to not care about what they eat, and to drink themselves into oblivion without losing their male decorum. It goes without saying that they’re not supposed to whine or ask for sympathy.

fix all my bugs and make the existing software packages i maintain as good as possible so i have nothing weighing on my mind.