i thought this weekend was the ideal for fast and solitude. based on my schedule, i though it would be the most free. i can’t do it, though. it looks like i’ll have to work most of the weekend. ..

i have no complaints, yet i feel irritated. today i start a 3 day fast, and look forward to some solitude.

Sunday:
	- met Scott for a game of Go
	- met Rob for CS project work
	- did some work
Monday:
	- full day at work
	- Japanese class

Tuesday:
	- full day at work
	- parallel computation class (last one)

Wednesday:
	- full day at work
	- Japanese class
	- bought used server equipment, started configuring

Thursday:
	- full day at work
	- Japanese class
	- more time spent configuring server equipment

Friday:
	- long day at work
	- toured potential data center
	- more time spent configuring server equipment

Saturday:
	- met Scott for a game of Go
	- parallel computation project

I have to finish my PC project by Monday @ noon!

Sunday:
	- woke up early to call Eriko
	- spent the day relaxing, studying, and working

Monday:
	- long day at work
	- no Japanese class due to the holiday
	- research for UW class

Tuesday:
	- long day at work
	- parallel computation

Wednesday:
	- woke up early to call Eriko
	- baked pork & beans for 1st time
	- long day at work
	- japanese class

Thursday:
	- long day at work
	- worked out with Zack
	- relaxed

Friday:
	- long day at work
	- a few social hours at the local pub

Saturday:
	- errands
	- worked on CS project
	- poker game

the nebraska service centers for visas is processing i-129f’s from oct 12th. that puts the wait time at over 4 months, which is the may/june timeline. i get a feeling this is going to be close…

i finally called Eriko on the phone, and that was good. i’m not sure why it is so difficult for me – part of it is waking up at 4:30, walking to work in the cold, and straining to hear across a poor connection. another aspect is that i have to come out of my ‘I-first’ view of the world. soon, it won’t just be me, it will be us. afraid of losing control, i am. the irony, of course, is that i’ve never had control.