about 4:45 this morning, I awoke to Bailey muttering to herself (and to me, imagine). finally assuming she wanted to go outside, i opened the door. i saw her go to the right and come back in a little later. i shut the door but she wasn’t satisfied and this probably repeated several times. so, i put on a shirt so as not to freeze completely and decided to show her the way. i would walk about 5 feet and whistle and she would come towards me, reluctantly. showing her the stairs was fun, she kept trying to squeeze her way into the little gaps. i can’t imagine the revelation she felt when she started to explore. she only explored for 10 or 15 minutes before i started whistling for her to come back (i was cold) and wanted to make sure she would get the experience of coming back to the apartment. she made a couple of wrong motions towards other people’s apartments but since i was moving behind her she didn’t stop until we got to the door. all and all it was an amazing moment.

i have yet to move the TV, dresser, couch, and desk. they are too big for me to move by myself (especially since i can’t find the darn cart). almost everything else is moved, however, including Bailey. she did not like being moved and my arm and chest can prove it. ;P she’s very timid and shocked now but i’m hoping she’ll relax and recover as the apartment gets put together and she spends more time in it. which reminds me, i should get back to her. i’m typing on David’s computer up in the old apartment since i won’t have internet access until Oct 1. [i’ll be OK, i have work.]

Politician: An eel in the fundamental mud upon which the superstructure of organized society is reared. When he wriggles he mistakes the agitation of his tail for the trembling of the edifice. As compared with the statesman, he suffers the disadvantage of being alive.

Feelings of lonliness and longing tear at me; desires bombard my senses; confusion swirls in my head. Then I read a sweet word; a beautiful memory floods my realm; I find that place in me – the place that gives me the power to stay my course.

i got the keys to the new apartment last night. =) i’m very excited. additionally, i had a moment of bravado and i actively met the Japanese lady who lives next door. i asked her if i could come speak with her on occassion and she in turn suggested we setup a regular weekly meeting! that’s very exciting. i had a few extra bugs added to my list but i’m up early and ready to tackle them. =)

or rather, a man’s reaction to a woman – is very tricky. i can actually say that i have had quite a few girlfriends and had a variety of experiences with them. i have fallen victim to the ego, lust, infatuation, guilt, jealously..

those are all obviously wrong reasons to be with a girl. my old landlord told me something that i thought was very compelling – he said the most important thing in dating a woman is attraction. raw attraction. i think that is the first step for a man. i knew i was attracted to Eriko the moment i was near her. it is a very deep attraction. her appearance, her personality, her culture, her family. very attractive to me.