It's the reality of where I am in my career now - wandering, searching, exploring, discovering, and learning.
I'm very fortunate that a few folks have looked past my lack of commitment and let me participate, investing in the hope of mutual benefit.
Of course, I feel the visceral and conflicting tensions: the need for an all-encompassing mission, the desire to create that mission for myself, and yet, the realization that I don't know what it takes, nor where it will take me.
I’m officially unemployed as of October 1st. I’ve known this day was coming for a year, and yet I am still shocked by how quickly it has come. Not that I didn’t keep myself occupied - but ... wow.
Reality hits.
“What’s your plan?!”, I am often asked.
I have many plans, but ironically, no specific one when it comes to my career. I’m super grateful that I have the flexibility I do; I’m going to take advantage of it while I can. In the short term, I will continue to spend time exploring a number of different options while simultaneously earning some income. In my spare time, I’m very focused on fitness, being active in the home, and (just starting) to push myself on continuing education.
I just discovered a new app, Streaks. I’m strangely excited about it, primarily because it forces me to prioritize: what are the six most important habits to me? I want to write more describing my recent journey with habits, but I’ll save that for another time.
I’ve been doing a great job on many habits with the help of Coach.me, but the simple truth is that the flexibility of the platform enables me to over-commit - and being over-committed impacts everything, not just the superfluous things.
This lonely blog is at an empty crossroads… (hint: time for a makeover!)
The internship is on.
