You are capable, competent, creative and careful. I like the sound of that!

i can’t blame my parents but i’m not sure i would have realized how much i enjoy wine if they hadn’t offered it to me… ;P so i am currently enjoying a glass of wine after having worked for about 6 hours on a contract project for polyformus. i hope to get more contract work and i hope to fill my schedule to the point where i have 0 free time. but i want it to be a stress-free schedule, filled with fun activities. =) t-minus 1 month. yeah, i’m counting.

I think I made a diary entry that didn’t make it due to some messing around with mail settings on my local machine, so I’ll make a summary. Brian came into Seattle on Friday night and I picked him up; then we hung out with Susie and David. It wasn’t bad, we ate Mexican food and then went to a bar. I really dislike going to bars though – stinky, loud, and typically boring. I worked for several hours on Saturday and ran some errands; then I went to Korean food with the three + a d00d named Chuck. The food was good but I was real tired and a little cranky. What I realized is that I was really annoyed with the way Susie interacts with me when there are other people around. Normally we have interesting, engaging discusions and that was missing from every one of our encounters this weekend. At worst, I was pissed; at best, I was annoyed. However, I think encounters like this are good to put things in perspective. Relations between people, as between countries, animals, etc. needs to be balanced from time to time. I feel as if I put too much faith in my friends and not enough in myself.

article by Bill Mann

here are the lyrics from a country song i’m listening too: we’re tied to our memories, they won’t let us stray. we’re not going to lose ones we made yesterday. we look to our future and we make all our plans as if we control what is out of our hands. the world keeps on turning, i’m learning to see. right where i am is where i have to be. you can’t count the pages, all ages hear the call – no matter how hard we try, life gets away from us all. we start getting older the moment we live; look over your shoulder there is hind sight to give. on good days and bad days the sun is going to rise, so why look beyond what is in front of your eyes?

perhaps my original thoughts about how Eriko was feeling were more correct; she wanted me to guess which of my friends she didn’t like and I guessed Tae and David – bam, nail on the head. the truth is, i’m comfortable with her not liking some of my friends. it is actually a great thing, although i cannot explain why i think so. despite the multitude of my bitches, i am very grateful that Eriko and I are apart from each other. we have this unique opportunity to grow independently and learn about each other as we choose to. and something clicked in me; i don’t know when but i was doing a statistical analysis of my email (yeah, i’m a nerd) and i realized that i am actually quite comfortable with the level of communication between Eriko and I. there will be puh-lenty of time for us to be around each other all the time, etc. funny how such realizations occur.