i haven’t figured out how i feel about being an Uncle. Melissa says I’m scared of Matthew – and I definitely do feel an element of fear: that I will corrupt or break or somehow harm this miracle. I suppose the event is also making me think of when I will be a daddy and I feel an enormous amount of pressure as I realize all the many things I haven’t accomplished and want to. at the same time i know that my head can produce a lot of “fluff” and i have no choice but to believe that i will be ready for whatever comes my way. this is a very humbling feeling.

in other news, Melissa gave birth to my nephew, Matthew Killian Foote, sometime yesterday afternoon. i have yet to met the little guy but i should have an opportunity in a couple hours. until then i am going to relax in this warm home – free from obligation. =)

i had refraind to mention this to you, diary, because i wanted to surprise my folks. but my mom is too clever and deduced it anyway. Isilon accepted my offer to be team lead. this is going to be a very exciting and challenging time; my previous experience as a lead was in a company where i was considered the technology guru. this is definitely not the case at Isilon and i have a great many things to learn.

i have been deliberately avoiding my diary as i have some secrets to tell… ;P

i’m so busy!

can sometimes be an opportunity – the trick is having enough faith to carry it through. (this quote provided by the writers of the ’everwood’ show on the WB)

i am looking ahead and i see a large hill before me. i am scared and weak but determined. for now, however, i will camp at its base and reflect on the path travelled so far.