i’m really enjoying myself today. i slept in, talked to my parents on the phone, and have been playing with my new computer setup. i’m a bit of a homebody and a bit of a hermit. =)

Eriko is working on a play with some d00d and I keep hearing his name. The bastard! I realized last night, however, that I have nothing to worry about. He cannot provide for her as I can; it will be quite common for either of us to have crushes as time goes on. What matters most is that we are loyal and honest – and I have nothing to worry about as long as I do my part. Words and thoughts do not necessarily eliminate feelings but they can have an affect.

I updated several sections of my website tonight and I couldn’t help but be brought to tears as I thought of how to describe my family. I realized that as I grow older I only appreciate them more. Why the update? I was adding a page (“trends”) describing my sleeping patterns and tracking my weight and I got to poking around. Katrina is also visiting me and I must admit that she continues to impress me. I hope that she and dad can find a way to overcome their fears and get to know each other as they have always wanted.

Eriko mailed me the script from her play – it is overwhelming in its content. So much so that I don’t even know where to start – I will ask the Japanese lady in my building to help me; I’m hoping she will agree. Unfortunately I don’t remember her name and that definitely feeds my procrastination… As I analyze this I realize I have to move on it if I’m going to get anywhere. Katrina is coming on Sunday and I leave in two weeks.

a little down, lonely, frustrated, lost…

i managed to wake up early and go swimming in the morning. i feel a little tired now but no more tired than i normally do – and i have this feeling of pride somewhere. the trick is not to put any pressure on myself… just let it happen, if it wishes.. ;P