mixed emotions

Can you imagine loving someone for decades, believing that your future with this person was a certainty, and that your joy was shared - only to have that entire perspective declared null and void?

To have that person walk away from the shared time, seemingly with little regret or indecision, brings with it such a variety of emotions.

Betrayal, for sure, but also gratitude and nostaglia for those joyful times.

She needs to go, and I will miss her. I hate being stuck in the middle.