It's the reality of where I am in my career now - wandering, searching, exploring, discovering, and learning.
I'm very fortunate that a few folks have looked past my lack of commitment and let me participate, investing in the hope of mutual benefit.
Of course, I feel the visceral and conflicting tensions: the need for an all-encompassing mission, the desire to create that mission for myself, and yet, the realization that I don't know what it takes, nor where it will take me.
I feel… young at heart. 😌