at first sight

Why is that I always seem to love at first sight, but those that I love are oblivious to my heart pounding wildly? Do girls not love at first sight? I suppose that society teaches a girl to be passive in her feelings. I am blessed (or cursed) to throw my heart on the table, with the table of contents as plain as can be. I must be patient; for the reader will take her time,
consuming each chapter at her own pace – independent of my desire to see the story unfold. I have no choice but to take comfort (or grief) in the simple truth that all is well, that ends well.