i think that it is hard to analyze such an extended period of time when most of my senses are so fixated on what immediately surrounds them. with that in mind, my age is just an arbitrary point on the line segment which is my life. i don’t know how far i’ve come; i don’t know how far i’m going. i can only look at where i am to judge the quality of my existence. i feel pretty good. every day i learn more about who i am, what i want, where i need to be. i grow more comfortable with my own skin, my limitations, my gifts. i know, though, that the roller coaster has not hit the big hill yet. i’m nervous, i’m scared, i’m excited. all i can do is hang on tight and enjoy the ride.