i find myself often listening to sentimental music or daydreaming of events, past or future, which strike me emotionally. it is a very curious process. perhaps the daily routine (in a very loose sense) is so logical and devoid of obvious emotional impact that i conjure up things? maybe it is to find balance? i must daydream about sad events to counter the happy times, which make the present elation even more real? but i also daydream about happy moments in the future, which strike me in a very similiar way. overwhelmed with gratitude. perhaps i am hardening my emotional receptors in anticipation of rockier times ahead? i’m quite curious.