being an Uncle
i haven’t figured out how i feel about being an Uncle. Melissa says I’m scared of Matthew – and I definitely do feel an element of fear: that I will corrupt or break or somehow harm this miracle. I suppose the event is also making me think of when I will be a daddy and I feel an enormous amount of pressure as I realize all the many things I haven’t accomplished and want to. at the same time i know that my head can produce a lot of “fluff” and i have no choice but to believe that i will be ready for whatever comes my way. this is a very humbling feeling.