The word Eriko used to describe herself. She’s torn – to be with me or not to be; to be near her family or not. Even though she sends me no explanation, I can emphathize. She must do as she pleases, it is her life she leads. I have no choice but to continue to focus on myself and cling firmly to the hope that she has helped me to rediscover. Astra inclinant, non necessitant.